Friday, November 30, 2007

painted toes; random

i had my toes painted :DD
toes

&they look like tomatoes,
i like them. haha

i wanna feel like a princess.
i wan a beautiful ending in my life.
i dun mind it being short,
or i'll just get knocked down by a car just tmr
to try the taste of being a princess.

being rich,
being pretty,
being well-mannered,
being pampered,
being able to take brandeds,
being in a happy family.

which made me reminded,
of my 'broken' family.
auntie ah leng said sheryl came from one,
so did kelyn.
&i was like, mine also.

yy am i so proud of it ?
is it something wrong with me ?
yy am i not sad that my family is going to be broken ?
though it had been back to normal now.
but i can sense that there's always a gap inbetween us.
we dun talk like past,
when we respect each other.

I DO WHAT I WANT now,
&nobody can control.
yy ? am i still so happy about it ?
had this became the excuse for me to turn bad &be wrong ?
to stay out late at night because i can find another happier family ?

did it affect me ?
or had it already affected me ?
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even i didn't know the answer.