corrupted; corupted

used to be,
i live like happy go lucky.
i talk not thinking of any consequences coming ahead after what i spit.
i laugh at silly little things.
no stress over ppl getting on my nerves, talking bad about me.
becuz life seems so fun &easy to handle.

but in the corrupted world,
i start to learn.
to take revenge, to talk properly, to learn evil things.
i see ppl with two sided faces.
with two way purposes.

even, the closest ones.
i look at how they can actually be like that, &pooof, be another like that.

my brain is corrupted,
but i wanna be back like last time.
it's tiring to be someone two-sided.
&protection over myself is tiring, very.

is this the gist of human life ?


i rather...
i wasn't here in the first place.
take me home early, Lord.